ditch.

ditching this.

now on tumblr.

http://rhiannonelle.tumblr.com


xo R

photobooth. why not?

photo's of me.

cause i'm a narcissist and i think you want to see them.

xo R

i'm feeling...

nostalgic for my old blog.

i wanted a change for the new year, and intended to write solely a fashion blog...but i have clearly failed.  i do LOVE fashion, but i am clearly driven by much more than that.  and my narrow focus has caused me to quit writing about other passions and become virtually speechless.  i change that today.  good things to come i hope.

here is the old blog if you are curious.

xo R

(dug this out.  three years ago, to the day i believe.  my oh my how things have changed.)

city of angels. bye bye.

los angeles valentines day trip was a success.

it's crazy because i will not be going back there for a long time.

everyone is growing up and moving on w their lives.

my dream of living there is no more.

and besides disneyland w the little bro, i don't see LA in my near future.

bye bye city of angels, you gave me some wonderful vacations.

xo R

a million thoughts. the hardest part is where to begin.

right now, i have a million thoughts running through my mind.  about life and death and everything in between.  i am finding it impossible to link all the thoughts together and express myself.  i find that this is generally the case, and so, my thoughts sit locked in my mind, running round and round.  some people close to me may have tiny bits and pieces of the thoughts released to them, but mostly they sit trapped.  i believe this is the cause of my recent sleeplessness and the return of my serious anxiety.  it is odd to me that i completely understand where most of my "problems" come from and yet i can do nothing to change anything.

i believe that i am generally an outgoing person, but possibly not in the most important way.  i have often been accused of being a sociopath because i express so little emotion.  i long for someone to understand where i am coming from and want to completely listen to everything i keep trapped inside, and at the same time i would have no idea where to begin or what words to use.

as i have begun to grow up and chose the people around me more carefully and calculatedly, i believe that i have come closer to transforming into an open person.  i honestly believe pushing publish on this blog will be a giant step for me, because usually i chose delete.  but in the past few months i feel like my perspective on everything has changed completely.  i see some things more clearly and others are covered in more question marks than i ever thought possible.

"every beginning, comes from some other beginnings end."  sometimes you do not realize the impact that moments have on you or the entire rest of your life.

it is insane how uncertain life is.  we are not promised anything but right now.  the incredibly unexpected and tragic passing of a friend has opened my eyes to all that we take for granted.  just the ability to live is an enormous gift and yet most of us spend our days in situations that we cannot stand, or complaining about things that we could easily change.  i feel that i live almost every day w out expressing emotion in fear of getting hurt.  but now i wonder which is worse, hurting, or never telling anyone how you really feel.

even w realizing this i know i will remain silent to many people that i care about the most.  choosing not to open my mind to them for fear of sounding crazy or dramatic.  but from now on instead of stressing so aimlessly about what i want to do w the rest of my life, i want to focus on how i can make right now better.  i want to work towards sharing who i am w the people i care about, and live each day more thankful and less afraid.  

xo R

girl time.

getting ready for nails & shopping.  just another lovely tuesday.

love life.

xo R

catch up.

fun purple nail polish.  no makeup.

besties "21st" birthday.

coffee & magazines, make the world go round.

xo R

easily distracted.

stretching & planks turned into photo shoot...

maybe cause i hate planks ;)

xo R

los angeles for valentines.

so excited for a mini vaca

to somewhere not so gloomy.

xo R

uninspiration.

it's been a roller coaster of a week and a half.

i am pretty sure i have felt the happiest i have ever felt in my life,

and the saddest i have ever felt in my life all in this week.

trying to regain some normalcy.

at this moment i know i have a million things to be happy about,

but all i feel is sadness.

hopefully this feeling is fleeting like every other emotion i have felt lately.

i'm looking for permanent happiness,

but happiness is not a destination it is a mood, a journey.

xo R

fallen like a fool.

maybe its the way that the stars are aligned,

thats makin me feel this way tonight,

maybe its the words that you left unsaid,

maybe its the stardust in my head,

but i wanna tell ya,

that my heart is bustin at the seems,

i cant't wait another minute,

life is short,

love is sweet,

ain't no time like this time baby.

i can't hold out,

i can't back now,

like i've done before,

darling look at me,

i've fallen like a fool for you,

darling can't you see,

i'd do anything you want me to,

i tell myself i'm into deep,

then i fall a little farther,

every time you look at me.

against the rules.

what a week.  i feel like my life has been turned upside down.  it's all very bittersweet.  although the death of a family member is usually very sad, it does bring everyone together, which for my family doesn't happen enough.  i love my family more than anything else in this world and am so happy that i got to spend the last few days with them (minus a few who were very missed).  i am so incredibly grateful for the beautiful family i have been blessed with.  i would be no one and no where with out them.

back to reality for a few days.

i feel like a new chapter of my life has begun, for more reasons than one.  it has been a very weird/interesting week to say the least.  and although i am sad to say good bye to the previous, i feel like i haven't felt so happy, lucky and optimistic in a very long time.  i hope things continue to go down this path....

xo R

enjoying the sun.

i'm ready for summer.

i need coffee.

Wildfox Couture Spring 2011 collection

the whole thing is amazing.  Wildfox continues to inspire me in so many ways.

but this morning i thought these pictures were fitting.

xo R

late at night, after thinking too much all day, i start to think my dreams are all madness.  and that maybe i am crazy.

so i remind myself, "never let the odds keep you from pursuing what you know in your heart you were meant to do."

i'll always be a dreamer, and so i'll always listen to my heart...wherever it leads me.

goodnight.


xo R

crazy addicted: Ellie Goulding

it's been a very long time since i have said this about an artist: i LOVE every song.

she. is. amazing.

thank you little tar tar for introducing me to this british amazingness.

she even rocks Wildfox, an A+ in my book.

xo R

Black Swan. Natalie Portman. Mila Kunis.

so i have yet to post anything since the new year.  honestly i have been feeling completely uninspired.  new years always make you think about your life and where you want to be, where you want to go.  i am incredibly proud of the progress i made in 2010 but at the same time this isn't where i want to be.  anyway, i went to see Black Swan and i have to say it was probably the best movie i have ever seen.  i absolutely loved it and have become quite obsessed actually.  and not only w the movie but w Natalie Portman and Mila Kunis, so here are some beautiful and to me, inspiring photos.

xo R